"There's many things I wish I didn't do ..."

At this time, three months ago today, I was in the recovery room ... recovering, I guess. A lot has happened, and a lot has changed in the last 12 weeks!

I'm trying to exercise every day, not always successful. Yesterday was skipped because I spent the morning at the hospital, having an Upper GI test, done to check on the status of the gastro-gastric fistula. After I got home from that, I lazed around with a slightly upset tummy from the lovely crap I had to drink for the X-rays. So I just never got around to sweating on the treadmill. But today I was back at it. (I'll know the results from the Upper GI tomorrow when I go for my "3 Month" office visit with Dr. Bour.)

On my home scale, I've lost 50 pounds since surgery. I like to add in the 21 I lost before surgery, for a total of 71 since March of this year.

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To my faithful commenter, Amy:

I have a Beth Hart CD ... "Screamin' For My Supper", or something like that ... I'll have to listen to see if I can walk to it. (Marching band is so deeply ingrained in my brain, if I can't walk EXACTLY to the beat, I get all tripped up and distracted.) Haven't heard any of Garth's rock alter-ego, but I'll look for that.

After I wrote my last entry, Jimmy got all into making me a CD to walk to, so we went through some of my favorite CD's to find some with the right beats. That night, we went to Adam and Brandy's house for dinner and Canasta ... and Adam and Jimmy worked on it for about an hour with Adam's educated computer skillz, and now I have my very own 45-minute Walking CD! Adam made it so that it the "beats per minute" increase with each song, until midway through ... then they decrease again. So I can warm up, work hard, and cool down ... all without thinking about changing tracks on the CD player. I'm so spoiled now! Don't know if it would be too slow for your liking, but for my 5'10" self, it's perfect for the shape I'm in right now. (I bet he'd burn you a copy if you make him a cocktail at the beach!)

I hear ya on the Chilltown guys ... they are REALLY good at what they are doing though. I can't help but laugh at them when they get all tickled with themselves.

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Final Thought For Today:

For those of you who are working hard to change bad habits into healthier ones (WITHOUT the extra help of having your digestive system rearranged surgically) ... and I think you know who you are ... I am SO PROUD of you!!! I know it's hard, and I know it gets tedious and boring, but it WILL pay off. I want you to live long and healthy lives and I don't want you to have to do what I had to do. So don't give in, and don't get discouraged. You're changing your lives, and your futures look GOOD from here! You will build lean muscle with exercise, and lose fat with your healthier diet ... and if the scale doesn't move every week, then forget about weighing for month or so. The changes you are making ARE worth it!!! If you have a slip-up (or a week at the beach) just get right back to making those healthy choices. As long as you NEVER give up, you CAN'T fail.

You make me so very proud. :-)

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I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you